Feeling that I’ll never find what I’m looking for..

Lately this feeling has be persistent and quite depressing where I compare my life to others who have that special someone to share their life with. I know I’ve been told that when you stop looking for it is when you come across it but how can you stop wanting something you can never stop looking for? I’m so tired of putting myself out there when it comes to going out on dates and meeting people all the time where I feel the slightest hope of being closer to finding that feeling but then it never working out for some odd reason. Every passing day is a reminder that I’m getting older and the clock is ticking on finding someone I can be compatible with. I had always envisioned my life to have a great career, family where I’d come home to a loving individual and also kids who I would adore, spoil in my own way with my partner. I’ve established a career for me but I feel like I’m losing my ability to connect with people who I did before just because I’m so focused on finding the one or that special person in my life. Sometimes I feel like I prioritize that over everything else in my life because I want to put in the efforts but then I feel like I’m losing my connections with other people within my life due to that. I inherently feel this sense of loneliness amidst the people I know well as I’ve lost that sense of connection with them since I’m so focused on one aspect of my life. Why isn’t it easier to meet that person and why do we need to struggle to find that one genuine connection? I don’t consider myself weak or someone who breaks apart easily but lately I’ve been overtly sensitive or just someone who has started doubting her abilities of ever finding that connection in her life. I’ve always been confident about everything in my life but this is one thing that makes me feel utter sadness, despair and made me feel critical about the way I’m. It makes me question my self worth and makes me ask the question I rarely ask: Am I so unlovable as a human being that I can’t seem to find that one connection that I crave for or am I that oblivious to that connection that I keep missing it and that’s the reason I can’t find it? I don’t know the answer but I do know that everyday the hope of finding that is slowly fading away.